Omg Something AMAZING happened yesterday:)

It has been amazing these past few days! I actually told Mattie that I liked him last night and he said he liked me too and he has never had a gf b4 but he is mega picky but I am not someone he would reject more than likely. I fit some of his things...I mean he def fits all of mine and he is a good christian guy and he is super adorable so I know that he would be good for me and me for him. After ICYC, I felt more like that strong christian girl and I love being in this mood. God has helped me alot this week. He has helped me cope with things but I mean honestly I am glad I told him. Now I hope we work things out between us. I mean he is amazing. I love how he smiles as much as I do. I love how he loves God like I do and I am glad he is like my friend! Its is amazing how this all worked out. God is so amazing and Great! I wish I would have seen this one coming because I didn't and then it clicked in my mind that I actually liked him and every other guy doesnt matter because I am actually falling for Matthias Phillips:) It is so weird how that happened to us. I dont understand love sometimes but this is the best feeling ever and we arent even dating. It is great! I know he is shy and very picky but I am so ok with that. He just has that something you know? So anyway It has been a odd week...ICYC changed my out look on things...like drama and depression. I hate drama and it isnt even worth it ya know? Depression isnt just something older people get but you also can put yourself in that state of mind if you dont try to be happy....that would suck right I mean I actually enjoy laughing and having a good time so dweling on things like that would make you sad...:(

Ugh! You need updated!

Wow so I havent been on in a long time guys and I am super sorry for those of you who actually have started to follow or read. So this "amazing guy" I was dating dumped me at semi formal(school dance) and wont talk to me now at all. I get a "ih" but thats about it and he said he "loved me like a sister." How retarded is that? I understand that maybe he does but why did he wait it out so long? That only caused me more pain than I would have had if he would have told me sooner you know? Anyway I am officially single and it is a weird feeling to have. I did have an awesome weekend though. Shelby invited me to hang with her and the guys and we went to the movies and hung out at Jared's house. It was pretty awesome! We lit alot of things on fire and just messed around with it like we played tennis with the tennis balls on fire. We also lit toilet paper on fire and kicked it around the yard haha! It was a blast though. Those guys are like awesomely fun to be around and I honestly can say that I havent had that much fun in a long time except for when my bud zachey comes over...we naturally have a good time doing nothing lol!

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This is Hunter. He is such a goofball and he makes us all have a good time just being himself. He is my shoe buddy and he will always know the true power of purple forever<3

This was our fire tennis game haha! Shelby and I were awesome (actually we couldnt get the ball off the ground) enough said lol!

Poor Jared:( He should gain faster reflexes! Haha:)

Math issues?!?!?!?! UGH!

So you guys don't know this but I actually have and 'F' in math and have been trying for a better grade since my first 56% math test. I have less than a 4 days to bring this grade up or I will be eating lunch with everyone else who has an 'f'. Ugh! But over all today was very awesome and I had a nice time...but unfortunately I will not be eating lunch with friends for like 4.5 weeks! Ugh! I am gonna cry:(
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HOWDY YA'LL:)

Hey whats up! Ok so it has been forever and a day...I will start with an awesome story *clapping hands excitedly* So Molly and I were walking down the hallway to go to the bus at the end of today and I was doing the usual "walking" with my awesome boyfriend Cory and we paused for like a few seconds *blushing* anyway...so the bell rang to announce the buses leaving and guess what...Molly and I werent even outside yet (you should have seen molly running:) so we get outside and the bus was pulling away so I decided to be a hero and call home but the bus saw us and stopped...yep...so. Fun moment of the day! So my day has been like this ALL day ...no lies! So...(which I have said alot:) How is everyone out there who is reading my most amazing blog ever? Im gonna go cook with molly now:) See..I mean blog you guys later:D
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Tiffany Marie Jones

My next victim is my best friend since like 4th grade...Yep Jonesie:) I love her to death and even though she sometimes blabs on the latest gossip, I couldn't ask for anyonebetter than her. She has this sweet and innocent personality and she is so easy to talk to because she is always out of the drama between people like angela and donald. She can always take the stress away from an awesome girl night or even when we drive and just hang out together. I remember the first time we became friends, she was very outgoing and she introduced herself as soon as we met. She has the roots of a true blonde even though she was born brunette! We have the goofiest moments even though sometimes we try to prove our points about something and she thinks she is always right. She is the most amazing person I have ever met. She is truely my sister and without her in m life I would have a crazy dramatic high school experience by far worse than it is right now.I honestly couldnt survive without her in my life. She is my best girl friend ever! Her family is so sweet and caring just like herself and none of them judge people for anything wrong. They always make a good conversation when they are around. I dont know why I am so blessed to have her because I can be a pain in the butt when I want to be but she is still my friend. Its been 7 years and we have been through so many times...bad and good. I remember one time when we had a sleepover with Molly and we dressed up and played with her keyboard and then we dolled up molly in make up and we went crazy on her. Or this one time when I was hanging with Tiffany and we rented Saw movies and just hung out and pigged out on junk food and layed around the next day watching ANTM. It sounds dull but we had the most fun ever! So I basically am very lucky and happy to have her as my friend and sister forever and always because she will always have her own little section in my heart beside Jesus and Cory :) Heehee! Long story and no time to tell you because I am at Tiffany's now as we speak and I have to be home in ten minutes!
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I Don't Know What This is Called

I am just gonna plain blog it today because I havent been on in a long time and I promised people I would update all the time which I haven't been. So I have been in a couple issues these past few months and I have come to realize that I am so glad I made this one desicion because my bestie was right...never will happen. He has a way of being "blunt" now and that is great for him but he isn't himself anymore. Sometimes we fight over the dumbest things ever even when I don't want to and I almost lost his friendship last week over something dumb. I hate fightin with him. It's like a major heartbreak moment and a steven moment all over again and I can't be through that again. I don't want to lose the friendship we have because we are so awesome around eachother. We laugh over things I wouldn't naturally laugh at. Plus, we have a ton of inside jokes. Why screw that up? It would be very dumb to even do. Then there is my brain twin: now he has been there when no one was there for me because we have the same thoughts and actions. I love him to death and actually started falling for him but now I see that we would have never worked because he lives in oregon on top of the fact he listens to everything and everyone around him. We had a future plan and then it was over in 3 months. We weren't even together technically but it was so real. I loved every minute of it and I don't want to lose him either but I already have lost half of him. He barely talks to me becasuse his dad cancelled his cell phone and then he barely gets online to talk because he works all the time. I miss our summers and I miss our late night conversations. I have never cried that hard with someone before...ever! It was like he ripped my heart and took it with him to Oregon. I am MADLY IN LOVE WITH CORY AUSTIN RITTER! I don't want anyone else and I have come to realize he was always there for me. I mean he told off steven when steven broke my heart. He e-mailed him to tell him to leave me alone. I mean he is so protective of me. He tells me if anyone hurts me he will hurt them even if he loses trying. Why would I want to lose someone like that over something I thought I wanted? He makes me happy and I can't think of anyone better for me. He is just....someone so special and dear to me. I also have thought a lot about my life for the future adn I have stuck to a plan now. I am gonna go to beauty school next year and then UK the year after I graduate for business classes and then I am gonna open my own salon. It sounds silly but it is a dream. I even thought about maybe going into guard for college. I love color guard but I don't know maybe both! I just know my school plans and possibly my wedding plans:) I mean think about it...I graduate next year, This time next year I will be counting down days til I graduate and shake Mr. Huckstep's hand. I am ready for what is coming and I hope to live because I have also thought about this: what if God came tonight? I would have so much regret and I wouldnt be ready to go to heaven in fact I doubt he would accept me into heaven because I haven't been the best I can be for him. I hope to make it to have kids before he comes for the believers. I can't wait to see him! I am tryin to keep a positive attitude from now on and act like nothing has happened these past few months that shouldnt have happened. I shouldnt have allowed doubt in my mind for cory because I can tell he is being serious and I know he is the one. Its the way he looks at me and tells me he loves me and our personal moments when he is so amazing and adorable. I am tired of fighting and I am tired of drama so if there is any drama dont count me in. I would rather not go into it. I am tired of people asking me to take sides because from here on I am friends with everyone REGARDLESS of what the world around me thinks. I can be friends with whoever I want and I can like/love whoever I want and if that bothers you then take it somewhere else because I cant handle the stress anymore. My acne is becoming nasty! Now that my thoughts are gone I am done with this blog...happy blog tomorrow I promise!
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Ashleigh Nicole Grimes

Yeah This is my Extravagent Ashleigh! We met in a very funny situation. She was dating my ex Steven and then I messaged her because I read a blog and I was kinda like ,"Hey you are dating Steven. Him and I are friends." She replied and then we started talking and she agreed to come hang out so we could talk and come to find out we had so much in common! We hung out all weekend and we had such a good time and we laughed and cried and had good talks. I will never forget her dancing with me and Tiffany in my room to Toby Mac. Or crushing coke cans with high heels and then trying to touch my ceiling by running and jumping. We have been best friends since that first time we actually started to know eachother. I am so blessed to have her in my life although she has recently graduated and we haven't gotten around to hanging. I miss her so much! If it wasn't for eachother, one of us would still be with the jerk and we wouldn't have met or become friends. Thanks to her I learned alot about him and I also learned to know people before you judge them. Ashleigh if you read this: I love you sis so much! You and I share an amazing bond that no one will ever replace in my heart. You are such and amazing person and I am so lucky to have you in my life. You are like my older sister and I will never forget you. I love you bunches ash:)

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Cory Austin Ritter<3

Hmm...where to start *giggle:)* Lets start at the very beginning (molly singing sound of music). Cory has basically been there for me through all the times I have needed advice of help from a good guy friend. I met him in like 7th grade thanks to him hanging around molly whom I previously wrote a blog about and she cried:) He was kinda a littler nerdy but then again not much has changed. He is pretty much a goofball but he helps his friends when needed. Hmm I had the BIGGEST crush on him when he was dating my friend *sad face* but things looked up and it has been 9 months (molly makes a face saying"when's the baby due") jkjk!

But we ended up going to semiformal together...It was pretty awesome because we went with all our buddies like (molly) haha! We danced and molly had to take like 50 pictures (exaggerated)...more like 4.

He is basically the most amazing person I know. I love him to death! He just gets me and has this obsession with standing up for me and making me happy. I don't know what I would ever do without him because he is basically everything I know and I would rather not be with anyone else (ever). He has this way of making me blush and giggle or get a tummy full of butterflies whenever he smiles. I feel sweaty palmed and tongue-tied.

I mean look how cute we are together:) He is so perfect ya know? It all clicks and makes sense to be with him. I have never been so happy with a guy before I met him and I finally realized that he fits my perfect guy list. You know the list every girl makes so she can find the perfect guy that will take her breath away and make every minute of her life worth while?

I guess you could say that I am in love with my best friend which helps because we know so much about eachother. I couldn't be happier with anyone else. I COMPLETELY LOVE Cory Austin Ritter ! (Cuttest guy ever right? Dont be hate-N b/c he is MINE)

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Molly Jewell

This is my best bud ever Molly Anne Jewell (with 2 L's) We have oober time together! We giggle and laugh at 2 am for no reason whatsoever! She is a member of the color guard and we have been friends for 5 years. I love her to death (as a sister of course:) Sometimes we get into dumb fights for no reason but hey ...friends do that sometimes am I right? I mean we look out for eachother and I kknow she will always have my back no matter what situation I am in. I can trust her and I am so glad I have a friend this awesome and goofy! Molly if you ever read this: I am so thankful to have you to help me through. Between my love life and all the times I have had you help me fight off the creeps like my step mom...you have never left my side as a friend. What happened years ago when you told me you had a fear of being alone (friend/love) wise I thought it was sorta dumb to worry about but look at the friends we have lost and compare to the ones we have gained (Kayla and Sadie). I think we have made some progress and better choices. I will always be here to help you through and no matter how annoyed we get at eachother I will always be your sister (forever chica). This is my promise to you: you can talk to me about anything and I will not assume. Whenever there is a rumor or something I will back you up and help you through like you have done for me and when guys are being stupid and not realizing how dumb they are for hurting you I will be over with a carton of Vanilla ice cream drying tears off your eyes. I am sorry for anything that have ever happened between us and I am more sorry that I can't go back and erase it all but I can promies you that it won't happen again and I will always be here for you as an older sister for you to confide in me. I love you bunches molly!
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My first BLOG:)

This is my first blog using Blogger so I am gonna use this one blog to help you guys get to know the real me. The awesome girl people never get to know because I like to hide my gooberness from the world unless I know you. Since this is the first post...I will tell you now that I am straight up truthful. I don't like lies...they are so pointless. I mean it is like, "what is the point?" Ya know? Anyway, I also like to rant when I get upset or something. This ranting can cause people around me to blank stare or sometimes they just laugh because I make an idiot of myself all the time lol! I love laughing and I love to smile. If you are a goober like I am then we will get along great. I can't stand the serious type of people who don't laugh at anything and when you make a joke they just stare at you like, "what the boof?" Haha! I have a tiny obsession with the following:

1.) Chuck Taylor Converse

I honestly can not help this because they are comfy and goes with anything you wear unless its formal in which I would wear my converse anyway because I don't care what people think about my style. I like looking cute and hello converse=cute<3

2.) David Archuleta

Hello look at his cute smile...I mean COME ON! I would love to meet him just once or see him live in concert. He has the prettiest voice I have ever heard plus he has the looks. I have a picture of him framed and I am sure all my friends have mentioned it almost everyday sometime lol! I can't help it. I love cute singers and David Archuleta=cute singer<3

3.) John Mayer

John Mayer...he is just so inspiring. His music makes you feel happy or loved...anyway you take it he is the guy you would want to serenade you to sleep. I love smooth and cute love songs and John Mayer=writer of smooth and cute love songs<3

4.) Cheese Puffs

I will admit that when it comes to Cheese Puffs, I am addicted! I mean the cheesey goodness in every puffy bite can make anyone happy! Am I right? I like the cute size and nummy taste and Cheese Puffs= cute size and nummy taste!

Those are my top 4 sadly lol! But I like alot of things..I like dancing in the rain. I love when someone does something romantic like that one special person in your life. I love looking at the clouds with my best friends and seeing "naughty shapes" in the sky. I even love the feeling of being around that guy (or girl for you guys) and getting the butterflies and thinking ,"I never want to let you go." That is the one thing I want most in my life...the guy I love to be crazy about me too!

My favorite movies are normally anything sweet and romantic but I like being ridiculous and scared. My buds and I always rent those horror films that turn out to be ridiculously cheesey and you end up asking, "why did I waste my $5 on this?"

I love being me and I guess this is a little about me. I hope you will read my next blogs. I will be on here almost everynight if not everynight but I love to write about my issues and life and if you like to read about that stuff you should def come read my blog. I hope you enjoyed!

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